Spiritual Development

As I walked this weekend and reflected on my life, I reflected on my transition from into womanhood, I looked back on my desires, relationships and my driving force behind many decisions. Looking back, based on the circumstances sometimes my driving force was safety and survival. I examined how I developed, I realized spaces where I was stuck, refusing to let go, clinging on to ways that I only knew, I created what “I” believed was right was my pursuit. Reflecting on my foundation, my early life was a pursuit of safety and connection looking for a place to belong and most definitely to be loved.

In my girlhood, as a child, an unguided one at that,

In pursuit of finding what I thought I lacked
I ran when I was to walk, I reached for things that almost fell and crushed me,

I touched what was dangerous

lust and fire engulfed me,

In a fast pursuit of filling a void

As a girl, navigating the world.